Hello there! I just found this site last night and thought it would be a good idea to join. I have tried to kill myself 5 times, hospitalized twice and resusitated twice. The last attempt was in December 2010. I am under a doctor's care, take meds but very worried. I think about hurting myself many times a day. I have no plan, as they say but I think often how I hope I do not wake up in the morning. I was abstinent from bulmia for about 2.5 years until a month ago. I am at the point where I can not continue living this way. I feel worthless, helpless and a burden to many. Every night I go to bed wondering how this is going to end.