Hello. I just signed up. Interesting forum. I've been on another mental health forum and I've long since worn them out with my constant crisis. I can tell I've been too intense for them. So, maybe this will help. Suicide. Me and suicide. It's like that song Music and Me. We go together. I've thought of it many times a day every day for the past 30 years. Why am I still here? I don't know. I'm a coward, perhaps. I had a really, really bad weekend... involving a drunken hospital visit. Yeah... good times. As usual. Same old thing, different day.