Background: I've been depressed for a long time--since I was 12 years old, though I suspect it stems back farther than that. Some events in my life have caused the depression to be exacerbated. Most recently (2 months ago to be exact), my best friend's suicide. I received the note. I came here because more than anything I need the support. I'm 19 years old with friends who cannot begin to understand the depth of this type of pain and so they avoid it and by extension avoid me. I'm alone and in need of someone, anyone, who will just sit here in this darkness with me. Before this happened I was on my way up. I actually thought I could beat this. Now, I'm not so sure. I'm glad I found this place.