Intrusive images about specific methods are coming into my head.
Let me start off by being clear - I won't be acting on them, I am 100% safe, lying in bed. But I need to talk about this.
This evening, if I am not actively distracting myself then I get these waves of pain and hopelessness. Then directly after, I get these images in my head of (specific method). I feel that method on my body. Along with that, feel sick to my stomach, literally ill, from the images.
I have never actually tried to take my life, so why is it so vivid?!
This has happened before, years ago when I was much more unwell. These days I'm positively thriving in comparison, tho yes there have been a number of rough things going on recently. Before I would get these images daily / hourly. They were just as vivid but with more varied methods.
I wish the answer to be no, but has anyone else had this happen??
Let me start off by being clear - I won't be acting on them, I am 100% safe, lying in bed. But I need to talk about this.
This evening, if I am not actively distracting myself then I get these waves of pain and hopelessness. Then directly after, I get these images in my head of (specific method). I feel that method on my body. Along with that, feel sick to my stomach, literally ill, from the images.
I have never actually tried to take my life, so why is it so vivid?!
This has happened before, years ago when I was much more unwell. These days I'm positively thriving in comparison, tho yes there have been a number of rough things going on recently. Before I would get these images daily / hourly. They were just as vivid but with more varied methods.
I wish the answer to be no, but has anyone else had this happen??