I believe I've figured out an unconscious link for why I get so upset when doctors dont' take my seriously about my symptoms (mental health or otherwise). It possibly stems from my mam never taking me seriously when I was a kid. Whenever I was ill she would accuse me of faking. I had 100% attendance for most of my school life because she would never let me stay off when I was ill. Whenever I'd cry I'd get mocked and accused of 'crocodile tears' or 'turning on the waterworks' to get my own way (this continued until I was kicked out when I was 17). I told her I was depessed when I was 15 and she yelled at me and told me not to be stupid, teenagers have nothing to be depressed about. Also when I was having anger issues she didn't take me seriously and didn't take me to the doctors for a whole year to see about it, saying that she 'works with kids with real anger problems' and that I didn't have them, even though my actual problems were distressing me a lot. (My psychologist pulled her up for that and called her an unsupportive parent). There was also when I wanted a sex change (if you go back to my first ever posts on SF!) (I blame Aaron for this haha) where she told me there was no way I could have a gender identity disorder (which made the dysphoria worse), laughed at me for self harming and kicked me out. So yes, I believe her invalidation is the cause of my desperation for validation now. Which may be to blame for why diagosis is a necessity for me, and also to why I can get suicidal when doctors dismiss my symptoms as nothing. I wonder if I am correct?