anyone have this problem? as in you feel taken over, invaded, poisoned, contaminated mainly by previous intrusion/abuse/violation+ labelling in your past, that has eroded your boundaries and you feel like you're dying at any unsafe contact with people (mostly trusted people) especially when you're vulnerable and suicidal? this contact can make you feel like you're re living abuse/bodily violation, and can be similar i suppose to a flashback? but you feel it physically. somatic things like not being able to eat, can't sleep, bodily pain, real feelings of being poisoned and needing to get something out/away from you?