Fuck! This is fucking pathetic isnt it? Here, I am posting my "suicidal thoughts" on a forum filled with other potentially "suicidal" forum members. Dare I chuckle for a moment. The irony is so thick it almost coats my skin, can be almost suffocating.... It almost forces me to accept the fact that my self-involved post reflects an image I so desperatly attempt to escape from. One so rich, so superficial....So bred.. so engineered. Here I am... so involved... so influenced by... so stressed.... my own thoughts...my feelings... cant begin to explain, justify or rationalize.. any of the pathetic words I manage to type. Listen here.. I am so depressed...so alone...so .. nothing...dare I exist. Why? and what for? We are all asking ourselves the same damn question...yet none of know the fucking answer! I am special! I am important! Save me from myself! Save me from these fucked up, twisted thoughts and feelings taunting me to slit my wrists.... I am misunderstood.... I am ......We are... and together. Ironic, isnt it?