I joined well before the attempt, which was last year. I was just sick of everything - and wanted to kill myself in a fool-proof way. I heard that 1/25 attempts succeed. No pills - could throw up knives - (I brought one with me) to squeamish gas - we have pets train - my family would have to pay the consequences I had dreamed of buying a small boat where I would point the bow to the sunset for a day and drown myself. Instead I ran away for a night, jumped off a twenty-foot cliff, and black-out . . . and broke three ribs, both arms/wrists, punctured a lung (two weeks later I got pnemonia in the other lung to the point that I was at a great risk of dying solely because of my lungs), fractured a skull and broke my spine at T6-T5. I ended up in a wheelchair because I tried to kill myself. The good news is that it's been roughly half a year, and I can move my toes and legs slightly.