Irony is...

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  1. BelovedDreamer

    BelovedDreamer Well-Known Member

    I’ve got no right to be this angry, y’know?
    ‘Cause you never did make any promises to me.
    It was just one of those things.
    Through thick and thin
    hell and high water.
    I just assumed.
    But I guess you need a vocal
    ‘til death do us part.
    Or something like that
    an altar and a binding vow.
    But we never loved each other like that.
    Friends don’t buy wedding rings
    or houses together.
    You just, y’know, do what you have to.
    Heal what you can, where you can
    and hold hands through the rest of the mess.
    Friends should be able to forgive each other
    for wanting a life that is not their own
    or loving a person that the other didn’t choose
    or choosing a cause that the other didn’t feel.
    I was punished enough by the things I chose
    and am more than conscious of the fact that they were ill
    and fill of consequence.
    You don’t need to keep on scraping at open wounds
    with that sandpaper tongue
    for me to get that I made a mistake.
    Trust me, I’m well aware.
    It was my life that was destroyed
    yours was only scratched.
    Lucky maybe.
    You pulled away in plenty of time.
    The voodoo had barely begun.
    I just don’t understand how this happened.
    I don’t understand how
    you could misunderstand me so deeply
    or end up so far away and yet so constantly close.
    I don’t know how it came to pass that
    I probably could sit myself down here
    and open my arms up
    and wait
    and I’d actually make it
    without your knocking
    or calling or hearing the sound of your voice at the door.
    The oddest thing is that
    before you made me feel like the biggest
    selfish little bitch in the world
    the idea had never really occurred to me
    that someone might do something so
    painful and permanent and absent
    just to punish another person
    just to be dramatic and “make them pay.”
    Yeah, they’ll pay
    but you’ll still be dead.
    And that’s just stupid.
    I see how it happens
    but I also thought you knew me better than that.
    You might think I’m selfish
    but I’ve never come across anything more egocentric
    than thinking
    that another human being
    would take a weapon to their own body
    and split it like a ripe fruit
    from wrist to elbow
    just to spite you.
    The irony is
    that you’d never hurt me before that point.
    I’d never felt real anger or real disappointment
    or even ever wanted to strike out at your heart
    in any fashion
    I had no motive to
    take my own life just to damage yours.
    The irony is
    that beyond all reason
    I loved and trusted you more than most anyone else
    I had voluntarily cared for in my life.
    The irony is
    that I miss you more than anything else
    and you’re still
    right, fucking, here.
  2. theleastofthese

    theleastofthese SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Dearly Beloved;

    You feel things so so deeply and express those deep feelings so exquisitely and perfectly - I'm envious of your ability:smile: and sorry for your sorrow and frustration.:sad: You've written a most powerful missive and I like it very much.:smile:


  3. BrokenPieces

    BrokenPieces Well-Known Member


    lots of emotions in your piece..

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