Irony Notation

Discussion in 'Poet's Corner' started by BelovedDreamer, Nov 11, 2006.

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  1. BelovedDreamer

    BelovedDreamer Well-Known Member

    There is something extremely ironic in all of this.
    I wrote a suicide note.
    It got deleted
    Erased like it was never there.
    I felt something
    Something that moved me
    Despite my lethargy
    Into action.
    Now I find myself second-guessing
    Every action, thought, memory that falls
    Into that triangle eye of feeling
    And questioning reality itself.
    Questioning every ounce of my self and sanity.
    Unsure as to my judgment
    On any aspect of existence.
    I have put down the blades that cut me
    With their scalpeled edge and hermetic seal
    And taken up a weapon that leaves no evidence.
    One coping mechanism gone
    The spiral begins
    Awake, asleep
    It makes no difference
    I follow myself everywhere
    Laying waste to my poisoned psyche.
    It makes no difference
    None of it.
    I will live, I will die
    It is only a matter of when and where
    And no one has yet sufficiently explained to me
    Why one when is preferable to another.

    This is American
    Land of the free, home of the brave
    Breeder of capitalism, and bearer of McDonaldization.
    Red and yellow efficiency.
    Quick in, quick out.
    I’m just being patriotic.
    I came into the world
    I saw what it meant to live
    I rose up and tried to vicci,
    Really tried my damndest
    But failed to conquer.
    It’s a long fall for anyone
    And only cats always land on their feet.

    I know it is selfish to want this
    Or so I have heard over and again
    But I cannot help but think
    That it is awfully selfish to keep me here
    Just so they don’t have to lose me.
    I am ready for a rest
    I’ve exceeded my use
    Broken the proverbial bone
    If I was a horse
    They’d have pity and shoot me.
     
  2. theleastofthese

    theleastofthese SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Dearly Beloved;

    No, not exactly - if you were a horse I'd take you to the best vet for treatment. And it's worth mentioning that cats don't always land on their feet or survive a long fall - sometimes it's the shorter fall that kills them.

    I don't know how I missed this one. I really like its directness and perfectly compact expression, but I don't like the feelings that put it in your mind. I hope you don't find the person (including yourself) who will take pity on you instead of taking you for the best treatment for your injury. Win, lose, or whatever - please stay in the race, even if you have to sit in the grandstand to do so. Sit this one out for a bit, don't quit - please??:smile:

    love,

    least
     
  3. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    Thanks for sharing :heart:
     
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