For so long I've wanted to die, now when things finally start to look up I could be very ill. The world has a fucking sick sense of humour. I've been in pain for 4 days and bleeding for 2. If it keeps on I'll be going to the hospital. I can bearly lift my legs and I'm starting to feel sick. I'm really really scared that there's something seriously wrong with me. I'm not looking for pity or wanting anyone to worry about me. I am gonna go to the doctor so nobody needs to tell me to do that. I just need to say that I'm fucking terrified right now and losing my grip.