Everything in my life makes me feel like I have no control over anything. That I am irrelevant and I am not worth anything, all that was combined with the demons that I have been carrying for years and it causes me not to know who I am, where I am or if I am alive. I spend my days in a mental state of emotional lethargy until I explode from time to time. I feel cheated by those people who told me that this would not last that long and most of the time I wonder why live