So you've just been through your first suicide attempt. You couldn't do it. You tell yourself you're a coward, you chickened out, you're a failure....or are you. Life is something precious, and whether you believe in God or not, there always is a higher power present. I sometimes like to believe it is our ancestors doing whatever they can to make sure the lineage, or legacy if you prefer, is being kept alive. A stage that i believe we all would eventually get to. How they do it, be it through prayers or divine intervention or..or maybe just something else, it does not matter. What matters, however, is the fact that somebody really doesn't want you dead, more importantly want's you alive more then ever. It is a well known fact, that if you try something hard and long enough, you will eventually manage to do it, but why should you continue trying when clearly that is not your path, it is not your time to leave this world. Ask yourself this, why would someone want you alive? Can't find anything? Ask again. Not satisfied with the answers? That doesn't mean that there aren't any, it just means you're meant to do something else, something big, something important. It surely has to be something big if it's that important for you to stay alive. So why not succumb and follow this path. Why not follow this strange way to something new? It is after all a new beginning, take advantage of it! I am very very tired right now and i will continue next time, if anybody requests it. I really hope you guys understand what i mean. If not, feel free to pm me or mail me and i'll gladly ask.