All I'm going to say is....I can't find a job at all. I moved out of my home state of California to go to the Deep South (I love my family there, and the food, but it isn't a place for a young man) strictly because I had amazing family support and was able to help my Mom take care of my sick grandmother, while also going to school. So I got my associates at least and when I come back to California because jobs were scarce in Mississippi, I can't find a job to save my life here in California. I won't say where I'm at, but it's basically a clone of the small town I lived in in the Deep South except the ethnicities are different, there's more diversity, etc etc etc. But yes, jobs. I can't find one here. So now I have to either move back to the city I grew up in here in California, swallow my pride and stay with my Dad until I can get on my feet (he and I are at odds right now, have been for years. I don't like him whatsoever) OR I can go through my Mom's open door: she's getting like 5000-6000 dollars from a friend and I can go live with her in a nearby city. Close to where I live now. But see, I Feel like I'm a burden to her. I pay for my own groceries, but everything else she provides for me. All because I can't find work here. I can't find a job. I hate it. I had more luck in Mississippi. I was working there, happy there, BUT I also knew I needed to go back to California. It just wasn't the same. So I wasn't completely happy I guess. I don't know, dude. I just feel like I'll never be able to relieve my mom of the burden that I am unless well, I kill myself. That's the only answer. I'm tired of feeling like a burden to my Mom. She tells me I'm not, but I know I am. SHe's only saying that to make me feel better.