I am numb, that is the easiest way to put it. I am a veteran who served 2 deployments overseas. I got out in 2011. I was married when I got out and because I had a few screws loose when I got back from war she divorced me, took my daughter and left me on the streets of a city I knew nobody, tried to end my life (failed) that same year. Hitchhiked to my friend’s house cross country. My family is all estranged from me or dead including my parents. Now 27 years old (December 17th, 2014) Re-married, have a baby and 2 awesome stepsons. I go to school full time. I should be so happy in my life but I feel so numb. Every morning I want to <mod edit - methods> but I don’t. I come up with so many ways every day to end it (some of them are pretty impressive and no you can’t have my ideas). I can’t find happiness in anything that I do, all of my old hobbies just don’t seem appealing. My wife is a wonderful woman but I feel so cold inside, as I wouldn’t bother me how she would feel if I was gone. I fake a smile when my new baby boy does something that i know I should be elated about. I know it’s not normal to feel like this but I was just wondering if there is anyone else out there who feels so numb that they are too numb to even care to end it but that’s all you want to do. I believe I am going insane in this world because there seems as if there is nothing left to gain or that nothing even matters because we will all end up in the ground anyway. How does one continue to live a normal life like this? Just a head up I have been through the therapy, meds, psychotherapy. I am Plain NUMB.