anyone locked away and alone? For the past few years all i've known is my room, the house I live in with my parents, and the same old streets i've always walked. It goes without saying I feel totally isolated and trapped. I'm 20 years old, when I should be having the time of my life i'm a hermit, a recluse, i'm not quite scared of going outside but I don't know what to go outside for, and when I do I feel disconnected. I'm so confused and lost. Without direction. A brain with no mind. Is it me or has everyone read a script for life I wasn't given? I can't go and get a basic job, it's hard to know where to start. I don't have the will to pass their interviews. I've got no friends to see. I've got nothing to work towards. I've seen nothing of the world. Felt nothing back. I hardly feel any positive emotions now. What is going on? What the hell is wrong with me, why can't I function like a normal human being? I don't want to be like this.. i've never done anything wrong in my life. All i've ever done is try to do whats right. Am I destined to stay alone until I drive myself to the verge of insanity and everything is gone? I feel everything has built up like a wave. I BADLY need some kind of release but I don't know where it's going to come from, if it ever does, apart from my own hand. Oh well i've gone on long enough. I don't know what else to say.