Okay so the fact that I've talked about it..and tell people does that mean I really don't want to do it? Am I a coward? What is it? Why can't I just do it. I've attempted it before..but nothing happened. I didnt ingest enough pills I guess...just wound up with a really bad stomach ache. I see the statistics that show that 75% of people that talk about it..attempt it at some point. What's stopping me so far is my daughter....but I can't let that be enough. I asked my friend and she was like...what about how this is going to make her feel and screw up her life? I said," So its better for her to have a suicidal mom?" I'm so confused...but my time here on earth is very limited.