Sometimes I have the urge to just disappear. You know contact the government and legally get a new identity then one night pack up my shit and move. Leave without a trace. Leave behind all my family and friends. But I wonder which would be better? Me just disappearing or me dying? Honestly I am not sure. Then I wonder if that would really change anything? You know so what I have a new name it is not like I have a new face or new brain or anything like that. I am still me I am still tied to my past through memories. I am still the person I always was. I am just in a new location after all. It is not like I underwent surgery or mind alterations of some kind to make me into someone new. So I think, why even bother if I am only going to be able to escape myself through legal documents not through the removal of my personality. Any thoughts?