Not terribly depressed, not angry, not a substance abuser, over 50 but, suicide certainly seems like the best option. Will not lean on family, do not want to become to old to be independent. Have lost loved ones but, not terribly grieving, looking forward to joining them. Do not have back up finances to sustain old age. Have had a decent life and am ready to get it over with! Doesn't feel like a crisis. These feelings seem somewhat unique to this forum, maybe I am in the wrong place?