i haven't slept in 4 days. i'm tired, but wide awake. i desperately want to sleep, but i just can't. I can't get to sleep on my own. i've been taking sleeping pills for a while now, but i've been out for about a week. it seems that i can only sleep if i'm taking something to make me sleep. i'm getting so desperate for sleep i'm contemplating stealing my moms vikoden and ambian. i'll take just about anything to get some sleep. it feels like God is punishing me. but what could i have possible done to diserve a punishment like this? i just don't understand this at all. please somebody, help me before i do something i know i'll regret.