I have a very good friend who I treasure deeply. We were boyfriend/girlfriend, from July to November (2010), and there have been emotions running wild ever since, but we are now friends. This is a guy who promised me that he'd be there until the end of my days, would always support me and that he need me to survive. The problem is that everything he do hurts the shit out of me. I don't know what kind of feelings I have for him, but obviously there is some still there. I don't want him back at all. But sometimes it seems like he enjoy hurting me. Like he loves getting the confirmation that he is worth a lot to another human. Yesterday he visited me and left in a very sneaky way, so I knew something was up. And today I got to know that he went to a party with all my "enemies". (when I say enemies I'm talking about a gang of people who try to get all my friends against me, and who is spreading lies about me.) When I asked him how he could do something like that he shrugged and told me that they haven't done anything wrong. I'm so angry, I cannot stop the tears running down my face. I told him that if partying and all those people mean so God damn much to him then he can forget about me. What should I do? What can I do? Is he doing all this to hurt me?