I'm really starting to think it's all my fault. My parents blame me for almost everything, everyone i love ends up dying or getting seriously hurt. I just can't live with it anymore. The only thing that has kept me alive all this time is the hope that it will all get better, but it won't. I just want to end it all, but i don't want to hurt anyone, even though some of them hurt me. I've lived with this pain for so long, but i just can't do it anymore.