Is it really fair to expect someone to love me when i cant love myself, sure i still fancy women but everytime one tries to get close i dont want them too because i am afraid they may see the real me inside. The me that wants to die doesnt care about myself, how can i expect someone to love or care about me when i dont? Is it really fair to drag someone throw my pain what right as a human do i have to expect someone to understand and support me? isnt this my mess and is it not down to me to fix it? I never want to hurt anyone i hate the thought of someone being upset because of something i said or did, it makes me angry at myself. I tried hiding it in the past, but have you ever laid next to someone feeling alone yet they are in your arms and all you want to do is tell them how you feel:sad:??