I truely believe that my suicide will take away all the pain in those surrounding me in life. I will take all their pain to the grave, they will mourn maybe sure, but it will become some distant memory. Or is that just me? All the odd's seem to be stacking up in my favour/theory My mother has said many times I am her punishment My best friend amongst others have walked away because I am too much drama My family is too distant to give a shit So really, I would be giving my mum the gift of freedom, my "friends" the gift of one less drama person, and my extended family wouldn't care anyway, just one less family function to go too. There is no healing for me, just all signs pointing too my slow death Btw I know this sounds pathetic lol.