Ive been on not a lot but a few differant meds and non of them seem to work. Ive tried zoloft wellbutrin abilify lexapro and seroquel ... none of which made me want to even live. I know people say that I need to work with them to feel better but thats my problem is I dont want to feel better. (im pathedic not even wanting to feel better) Ive been told suicidal is my "comfort zone" and thats just what I keep falling back into. I have no reason to even be depressed and im suicidal. None of the things in my life are making sense to me. Sorry that I ranted and bitched about my problems a bit but ... idk why but I did.