fuck i fail at everything, last time was just a messy nightmare. physically and mentally.
i feel alone.. i smile for the day but inside i feel odd. i know the pain of suicidal one leaves behind them but i still cant stop wanting to die.. wondering if i would leave a trace behind that who fade away so easily since, nobody really know who i am. i learn to hide what i think or feel no to hurt my dear ones.. am only fake...
something i imagine to set up my own death making it look as a mere accident not to hurt my mum...
i keep thinking that to take the step toward unknown takes a lot of courage and is a choice...... in some case.........
only my opnion not the absolute truth*
i feel alone.. i smile for the day but inside i feel odd. i know the pain of suicidal one leaves behind them but i still cant stop wanting to die.. wondering if i would leave a trace behind that who fade away so easily since, nobody really know who i am. i learn to hide what i think or feel no to hurt my dear ones.. am only fake...
something i imagine to set up my own death making it look as a mere accident not to hurt my mum...
i keep thinking that to take the step toward unknown takes a lot of courage and is a choice...... in some case.........
only my opnion not the absolute truth*