i have all the normal symptoms of depression, 96/100 on the depression check list. lol. but i have happy - sad -happy spells all the time. i have few things which make me happy. and i just want things to end. i'm not currently suicidal. i have been recently, and i want to die now, but i am not wanting to end it myself. i fail each time i try, and its annoying. i have voices in my head. what is this???? it cant just be depression. i know i also suffer Post Traumatic Stress Dissorder.