Do any of the following: 1) Hide it from the outside world? 2) Be very specific about the details of how you would carry it out? 3) Vacillate between wanting to do it or not wanting to do it? 4) Know that you really don't want to do it, but feel that your circumstances are hopeless, and you have no choice. 5) Feel that it is an unalienable right to choose? Feel that no one, state, medical professionals, church, family, whoever, has a right to tell you it is wrong or to try to prevent you from doing it? 6) Just feel weary or emotionally numb some of the time, and like an emotional roller coaster other times? 7) Have a lot of nightmares about it? 8) Think that it isn't really your true feeling, just a question of brain chemistry gone awry? TIA for any answers or insights.