I've never really looked at the way I feel / act from a medical stance, I've never had any sort of therapy at all or even consulted a doctor. But the more I hear people with social (and other) disorders talk about themself, the more I feel I relate to their feelings and actions very closely. I'm a 17 year old boy, I feel very depressed a lot of the time, with random spouts of unwarranted happiness every week or so. My life is extremely embarassing for someone my age, I wake up 2 hours before my lesson is due to start each day (whether it starts at 9am or 2pm), I get the bus to college, attend lessons then get the bus home. I then either go on my computer, or just sit on a chair by myself next to the fire, that's all I do, each and every day. I never go out, I've never been to a party in my life, and I don't drink alcohol. While at school I don't really talk that much, everyone walks around in groups but I walk around on my own all of the time. In class I have a couple of people to talk to in one of my lessons, in the others I'm just silent the whole time, I try really hard to find something to say that's worthwhile, but can never think of anything. I had one proper friend, but he's slipping away now due to him moving school. I don't really contact anyone while not in school, I've had my phone for 5 years, I have 7 contacts, 3 of which are my bro, mum and dad so not like I could contact anyone if I wanted to. I'm longing for a relationship, but all I could really offer her is my love / personality, I think I'm a reasonably interesting person, but I don't do interesting things. Is it possible I have some sort of disorder that I could get help with? Or am I just the result of a shit life + depression?