I'm feeling hopeless, and everything in my life seems to hurts me so much. All I can think about is to end this pain no matter how. I' ve been dealing with these thoughts for 34 years and can't handle them anymore. Sometimes I don't know how I survived all these years and as I get older it gets worse. I'm almost 50 now and beginning to feel I'm too old to live like this. Is it possible to overcome this thoughts even after all these years? Is someone there who did it? All I can think is that, other than my depression, I'm a very healthy person so the odds are to live til 80 and I can´t handle it.