Here's the deal: a while ago, I went to my first session. Just paperwork and not really many questions. I answered the questions in the most honest and non-awkward way I could with my mother in the room and I ended up with bi-weekly sessions. This irked, me a bit. I felt a little unimportant, but I accepted it because Dr. C might be overbooked or have some patients in more desperate need of therapy. 2 weeks later, I'm back in her office. Not much was talked about, mostly mundane things (I have social anxiety and don't tell my best of friends what goes on in my head, how am I supposed to tell a woman I just met these things) Anyway at the end of the session, she informs me that the next time we are scheduled to have an appointment she is going on vacation that week, so I won't get to talk to her for an entire month. On top of this, after the month-long wait for our next appointment, that'll be the last one for quite sometime because she's going on maternity leave. I'm feeling all this anxiety now. I have thoughts of suicide and harming now. Not in 2-3 months. I feel ignored and belittled in nearly ever situation of my life, I don't want to be ignored by someone who is supposed to be helping me too. Should I keep at it with her? What should I do?