In three days I have an assessment for therapy and maybe meds, I am so scared to go. I've tried for the past 9 months to make it to an appointment but every time my anxiety wins. I NEED to go, this I know, but I don't know if I can trust someone with my deepest pains and not feel they will turn around and hurt me back. I guess in therapy talk I'm saying I'm scared if I am completely open with the therapist, I'm scared I will be hospitalized. I fear being labeled and I fear losing my family or the hopes of a good job because I shared my pain. The most sharing I've done has been this forum I found as of yesterday. I'm battling my anxiety right now, telling myself if I want to live I have to go but so far my anxiety is winning. All I want is to feel safe talking about my problems, I just don't know if that is an option. Advice/support is welcome.