I have wanted to die for quite a while now. My reason stem from my inability to cope with society and reality. Ever since I was a child I would live my life daydreaming. I am now 24 and constantly daydreaming. Back during my Highschool years I got really lucky one day and actually managed to get out of high school. Anyways, I have lived my life away from people for up until 2007 when I decided to get a job. I got this job with the intention of getting a friend or a girlfriend since I was getting really lonely by myself at home. But then I got really infatuated with a girl that worked then and could not muster enough energy to quit the job even after she kinda ditched me and started dating this other guy their. I could not get over her and have yet to get over her. But the worst part of everything is that by staying at my job, I lost all my money, I have been kicked out of my university due to bad grades, I broke a finger, and just seriously do not know what I am going to do. My fantasy world has collapsed and I cannot and will not cope with this change. I hate what is happening to my body. I really do not know where to turn and cannot seem to find happiness anywhere. I hope someone out there will end my torment. I seriously do not like the real world in the least bit and wish never to be part of it. Hopefully I will pull through this but am not quite optimistic.