I've been so down lately. I can't bear the shame. Can't bear the lies. Been hiding almost sleeping the whole day and watching tv for the past 3 weeks now. No energy to go out everyday and find meaning to my life. I've no money. In debt to important people in my life. They thought I have the means and ways of repaying them. All my transactions hasn't progress. I'm too afraid to talk to them. Switched off my phone and nobody could contact me and have no explanation when they eventually do. They might think I'm just using being suicidal or so depressed to get away with it. My work revolves with meeting people trying to get a deal of all sorts of things. I'm a businessman. Earlier in life I was quite doing well. Made wrong investments. Wrong decisions. Lost all my money. Started to work my way back 4-5years ago. But stiol struggling until now. I have 3 beautiful kids. Eldest from a wedlock 11yrs old son and 2 daughters 6 and 3.. Im separated with their moms. Living alone. I just need someone to talk to. Maybe guide me. But im so confused.