So, it's been nearly two years (May 2012) since I last attempted to end my life. At that point, the only reason I was saved was because my partner at the time, and a friend of mine figured out what I'd done in time. Yes, I resent them for that but so be it. Anyway, recently I began to self harm once more, and to be honest, I missed it so much. I feel like things are getting out of hand quickly but I'm not sure I want help or want anything to change. I have managed to pull together a plan once more, that would very likely be successful. My girlfriend recently told me that if she wasn't so scared of death, she would've killed herself already..I took that to mean I make her unhappy. So I've come up with my own plan..and if I ever feel she's comfortable enough to attempt, I'll go ahead too..I dont want to live in a world without her. We've had so many problems lately along with financial stress and unemployment on my part that I feel things are going to end soon. I'm so over all the bullshit and absolutely cannot wait to rest in peace.