For the past few months i have been having these terrible dreams. they are all different in one way or another but the main storyline is always the same. i'm am triggered by some event(this trigger varies from dream to dream), to kill myself. so i go to the grocery store(usually) to get a bunch of otc pills to od with. when i get to the store i realize that for some reason they don't sell any kind of medicine anymore, and i have no place else to get it. therefore i can't commit suicide. there are usually a lot of other strange things happening in the dream too, but thats the main story. these dreams are terrible, i always wake up on the verge of a panic attack. i am severely depressed and think about suicide about 80% of the time i am awake, so that could be why i am having these dreams. normal people probably would consider this a good dream, to me its so upsetting that it will ruin my whole day. i don't want to have these dreams anymore!