I sit here everyday and I stare at the same screen, trying to find why am I here and if it's even worth it to be here, fighting. The question "Is it worth it?" haunts me ever moment of everyday. As of now I live for my Grandparents, they are who raised me when no one else wanted me. When no one... no one else wanted me. Still, no one wants me.. 'Family' is non- existent in my life. I am the one they "put up" with, I am the one who took my grandparents 'golden years' away. I am the one who constantly is fucking up and doesn't deserve respect. If my Grandparents die, I have no one. No cousins, no siblings, no parents, no aunts or uncles, Nothing. I sit here and I try to smile and I try to see the light, and I am succumb by the darkness. "Is it worth it?" "Lila, is it worth it?" "IS IT?" Now... Is it?