is it really worth me going through with the whole thing with the police and trying to make this man pay for what he did to me years ago? i know theres only gonna be my word against his and since i broke down and told people about it things have just got worse..its making me feel more hopeless and i dunno if i can cope with having to relive it again, its already making me fear hes around the corner, i mean i'le never forget i accept that but i can at least black out some of the memories..just i dont know what to do, it gets to me more than what i thought. i'm already back to contemplating suicide and had an attempt this week, but it didnt do anything. i'le look great if i do it when hes on trial wont i. i dunno dont really know why im venting about it. just really dont know what to do, who to try to talk to or how to get over it.