Hello, I just joined this forum and want to hear your honest opinions. I am 28 years old. A little less than a year ago, I contacted an eye condition called blepharitis. It is watery, red, irritating eye condition which can make your life really miserable. My eyes have all these symptoms, and it's so difficult concentrating on reading and working anymore due to my poor eyes. And it doesn't just end there. My eye sights have been progressively declining ever since I contacted blepharitis and I am having vision loss literally every month. My eye doctor said when I can manage blepharitis symptoms, lost visions will come back. But there's no sign whatsoever that's gonna happen and vision keeps getting worse. My glasses are terribly out of shape but don't have money to afford new one. I have no idea how I'm going to work properly outside in society due to my poor eyes. I also have tinnitus, which is ringing in my ears. I obtained it when I was in military, I once forgot to use ear protection while taking the rifle test and ended up damaging my ears. For this, I can never rest comfortably. There's always buzzing and ringing noise that sometimes I just want to cut my ears off. The sound is so bad while I'm sleeping as it is so loud and it also ruins me mentally. And I have really horrible social phobia and anxiety. I have never seen anyone who has social anxiety like I do, and my level is actually close to autism. I have hard time being around with other people in groups, and it makes me feel afraid to go outside and get jobs. Now having social anxiety and tinnitus, I was hoping to still function well in society. But blepharitis has been like a death sentence for me. I am losing vision at such fast pace and have hard time reading and focusing things. I feel like I will eventually go blind. Or maybe I actually will. My mom also has some health issues and she needs to rest, but she can't due to our financial issues. The worst part is that I don't want to be a burden to her or to my family. I tried to have positive thoughts but the reality is the other way around. There is really no way out. No matter how many different ways I think of it, there is no alternative. I'm stuck like forever and my health will even get worse in the future as I age. Many times I just wish I was never born to begin with. Sometimes I wish that after I die, I can be reborn as a healthy person. There are 2 things that's stopping me from killing myself. One is the pain I would get. I'm afraid of it. The other one is the courage. I don't have the courage to do it. I actually don't care about consequences after I'm gone because I think my family will eventually go ahead without me. None of them are as physically or mentally weak as I am. I read about suicide everyday. Everyday, I try to accept more and more that life will still go on without me just fine. I don't think 28 years is terribly short time either. Just want to hear about what you think about this. Do you think it's worth living with such physical illness?