I'm an alcoholic. By choice, mind you. Yes, I have a family history of addiction and depression and mental illness and suicide and alcoholism, blah blah blah. But I went 8 years of my life without drugs or alcohol. I know I can be sober if I want to be. But I don't want to be. I don't have a single reason for being sober. Not one. Am I slowly killing myself? Yes. But I don't have much to live for anyway. Am I killing brain cells? Yes. But my brain has been nothing but a nuisance to me anyway. Is my body going to hell? Yes. But there's not much point in having a strong, healthy body if I'm not using it for anything special and nobody appreciates it anyway. Is it a waste of money? Yes. But so is the food I buy to keep myself alive. So is the gas I put in my car to drive myself to the job that I need to get the money that I use to buy the shit that I don't really want, but need to keep myself alive just so I can continue to survive and consume and produce waste without purpose. My body is little more than an intricate piece of organic machinery capable of converting oxygen into carbon dioxide, and my mind is little more than a complex organic computer capable of converting information into useless drivel. Is it wrong for me to state in the substance abuse section of this website that I have no intentions of getting sober, when everyone else is boasting about how many days they have clean and talking about the horrors of addiction and about how "drugs and alcohol don't solve problems, they only create problems", etc. etc. etc.? Is it really any different for me to say "I choose to be an alcoholic" than it is for some people to come here and say "I'm going to commit suicide"? Isn't it really more or less the same thing? I'm an alcoholic because I have no reason not to be. I challenge anyone here to convince me otherwise.