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Discussion in 'Welcome' started by Tangerine, Mar 31, 2013.

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  1. Tangerine

    Tangerine Active Member

    Safe to chat here?
     
  2. Perfect Melancholy

    Perfect Melancholy SF Friend

    Of course and welcome
     
  3. skinnylove911

    skinnylove911 Well-Known Member

    of course your are welcome x chat away x
     
  4. Tangerine

    Tangerine Active Member

    I can't do this anymore.
     
  5. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    Please keep talking to us! :hug: What's wrong, why do you feel so bad?
     
  6. Tangerine

    Tangerine Active Member

    I want it to be okay to talk
    I'm afraid it's not and I'm afraid ill be judged again.
    All I can say is I need an out and suicide is my out.
    I came here just to feel not alone.
    That's ok isn't it?
     
  7. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    :hug: You can PM me if you want to talk. I'll be out for most of the afternoon but will get back to you as soon as I can. You won't be judged here.
     
  8. Tangerine

    Tangerine Active Member

    I'm in such a massive made a mess of everything there's no way out andinneed to die really need to die its all I think about all I dream about at night all my energy is spent planning and plotting and now I'm drained. I feel like I've accepted the end is here I'm just a little scared. How do I not be scared?
     
  9. Perfect Melancholy

    Perfect Melancholy SF Friend

    I'm sorry you feel like that, have you spoken to a doctor about how you feel? Or even a support network like a crisis number where you can get help by telephone? It sounds like you need that help I hope you find something because believe me suicide is not the answer okay
     
  10. skinnylove911

    skinnylove911 Well-Known Member

    Suicide is not the answer for anyone, can you tell us whats bothering you so much you feel like ending it?
    are you stressed/worried/anxious about something, has something serious happened to you and you see suicide as way out?
    Please talk to us we can help you
     
  11. Tangerine

    Tangerine Active Member

    Hello

    I don't want help from professionals. I despise doctors. I want to die.
     
  12. Perfect Melancholy

    Perfect Melancholy SF Friend

    I get that I don't trust them they are over paid and try to put you in a box to diagnosis you.

    Why do you want to die so bad, could you tell me that please?
     
  13. Tangerine

    Tangerine Active Member

    I'm ruined and I'm extremely tired. I not have any fight left. I have to find some energy to fight the fear so I can die.
     
  14. Perfect Melancholy

    Perfect Melancholy SF Friend

    You really really don't need to die. It isn't the answer believe me. I wish I could show you it wasn't. If you don't trust doctors who do you trust?
     
  15. Tangerine

    Tangerine Active Member

    I don't trust no one
    Trusting is for fools

    Suicide is my answer & that's enough
     
  16. Perfect Melancholy

    Perfect Melancholy SF Friend

    Trust is something people earn its complex. But it's not a reason not to trust impartial advice such as a charity that had a helpline that you could ring anon for advice and support
     
  17. Tangerine

    Tangerine Active Member

    I talked to one once
    It was a foreign woman
    I told my story and she could barely hide her disgust and implied that I must be ashamed
    Never again will I talk
    My story is mine and mine alone and it will die with me
     
  18. Perfect Melancholy

    Perfect Melancholy SF Friend

    Not here to judge you I promise, not here to make you say something you don't want to. Or talk about anything you don't want. Just trying to show you that you do deserve and can get help and support you need, and most of all suicide is not the answer. I truly believe that
     
  19. Tangerine

    Tangerine Active Member

    Thank you
    I know suicide is the answer
    It's best solution for me
    I will cease to exist
    I'll no longer be anyone's problem
    I'll no longer have problems

    I've made my mind up. I'm just feeling a lot of feat and its getting in the way.
     
  20. Perfect Melancholy

    Perfect Melancholy SF Friend

    You're feeling fear because it's not the right thing to do not at all. You need to give yourself a chance you know. We all deserve that a chance to live and a chance to be happy
     
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