is life worth all the effort?

[one sometimes wonders]

Is it worth it? For me no! I have had enough of life, i don't want to carry on any more. Nobody would notice if i left this place. I hate myself and don't see any point in carrying on. I want to go i am ready to leave it all behind. i've got plenty of tablets around and feel like i could just down them all now and be gone before anyone notices. I've lived my life and am ready to go, i can't wait any longer, cause it just ain't worth it. I want to die and i am ready to die. Take my last breath in this world and go! Be finished forever. Why do i bother carrying on? I really dunno! So i'm ready i'm ready to go!

All my bags are packed, i'm ready to go...Cause i'm a leaving on a jet plane... don't know when i'll be back again, oh babe i hate to say good-bye...

 

[Sycotic_Sarah]

Well, id certainly notice.

Overdosing is a very slow way to go, if you fail, you could have a failure in many of your organs ie; kidney failure/liver failure/heart diesease/brain damage.

I dont think you want that.

I know how you are feeling, i've felt like this for most my life, but i'm not letting the feelings overpower me and letting them win, that will also just please my family.

Life is not easy, it is a very hard thing to do, live. Why not live for a few more days and see if anything changes, rightfully its your choice, i cannot nor anyone else can stop you or change your mind, some in real life may be able to stop you, but they cannot watch you 24 7. You bother because you either fear the afterlife or fear failing, or... you are living because part of you, a tiny part of you, is wanting to live, and that tiny part of you is a flower, waiting to grow, but its been blocked of by the feelings you feel now,
if you do carry on fighting, maybe you should get help? I don't guarentee that the first days of help will make you recover from feeling this immediatly, but help takes time, first its admitting you want/need it.

Sending loads of hugs,
Sarah
:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

P.S. Im not so good at the help thing.

 

[gentlelady]

I am sorry you are feeling that your life is not worth it anymore. You are tired of fighting. I understand exactly how you feel as I have been there many times before. But somehow the foght continues and here I am. Your life is worth the fight. No matter how bad things ar or how bad they get. you are still worth fighting for. Please don't give up. Take one moment at a time and consider each moment a victory. You would be missed if you were to leave. Take care and stay safe. PM me if you would like to talk. I will get back with you as soon as I possibly can. :hug: