just over two years ago i left the girl i loved, and would do anything for, to live in another country to work, i was only 18, she was 17,, i always told her i would be back for her, a year later, i was back, all i thought about was her, and us being back to gether,, she had changed, all she does now is drink, and hooks up with any random guy she meets, i asked her about us, and she said there was no future,, she was "having fun without me". everyone knows her now as the girl who drinks to much, and is a slut,, and when i tried to talk to her about it, she said it was all my fault that she was like that, now all i think about is killing myself, i cut, and just cut. it makes me feel better. i told her about this, that i cut, and just want her to forgive me, but she just tells me to FF, i really want to end my life,, but i still love her, and dont want her to think it is my fault? so is love a good enough reason?