Shouldnt you ask yourself the simple question "Is my life worth living". For me I ask myself that and the answer is no. Everyday I wake up with nothing to look forward to, I wake up having no hope for the future. I have to live in a negative enviroment with no way out it seems, and even if there was the feelings of no hope clouds any other thoughts I may have. I have no family members that I am close to, and friends for that matter. I have friends, but I do not have that closeness or feel that bond with them. They are more or less acquaintances. I have felt this way for many years so I ask myself is my life worth living. Is it worth putting myself through the pain I feel everyday? I have hobbies, I go to the gym everyday. I was running 40 miles a week at one time, and maybe I do more things in my life, but when your desire to live is gone and has been gone for a long time it is hard to even do anything.
"Is my life worth living"....Shouldnt that be the question to ask?
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Shouldnt you ask yourself the simple question "Is my life worth living". For me I ask myself that and the answer is no. Everyday I wake up with nothing to look forward to, I wake up having no hope for the future. I have to live in a negative enviroment with no way out it seems, and even if there was the feelings of no hope clouds any other thoughts I may have. I have no family members that I am close to, and friends for that matter. I have friends, but I do not have that closeness or feel that bond with them. They are more or less acquaintances. I have felt this way for many years so I ask myself is my life worth living. Is it worth putting myself through the pain I feel everyday? I have hobbies, I go to the gym everyday. I was running 40 miles a week at one time, and maybe I do more things in my life, but when your desire to live is gone and has been gone for a long time it is hard to even do anything.
I honestly wonder if it was because I went from not thinking that I deserved friends like that, to feeling like I do. And then all of a sudden, the intimacy grew.
Doing the same thing and expecting different results is the definition of insanity. Take a look... what can you do different to change it? It's definately not suicide. It's something different you have to do.
Only you can discover that for yourself.
When I was in a suicide crisis center, they had a book that was basically their "Bible". It's challenging to read, but it's truth. It's called: "Feeling Good" by David D. Burns. If you read it, and really delve into it, I bet it would plant some valuable seeds.
What is also helping me is a free course at www.gnosticweb.com. I'm taking the "self-discovery" one. I'll try anything once, if it will help. So far, it's challenging what I believe is real, and it's doing good things for me. I also embarked on my own self discovery with other books, cd's, etc. Because frankly, I felt just like you do now and I was damn sick of it. But one thing leads to another, and then another, and so on. Time to change!
Sometimes you'll be suprised at what you find. Pleasantly suprised that is :P
Best wishes!
It is better to have aquiatenences than beinng alone altogether. Isolation is a bitch. Other than the friends I have made here! I haven't had a friend in a very long time. As far as living, that is up to the individual.. I walk a very fine line. My therapist has me addressing the thoughts when I have them. Is it a thought that I want to hang on to, or is it a thought that is negative which I trash it.. My suicidal thoughts are always there, I work thru them with my coping skills and my therapy. I hope you can learn to address your negative thoughts and kick them to the curb. Good Luck..:chopper:..
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