I have been with my fiance now for almost 5 years. In the beginning things were amazing but things happened very quick. We were living together within 6 weeks & engaged after 5 months. But now, we're more like flat mates than anything else. We haven't slept together for 3 years now & we pretty much live seperate lives now, with him preferring to spend all his time with his friends or with his parents. I know it's all my own doing as I have pushed him away but I am just so lonely. My family don't think much of him & sometimes I don't have the energy to defend him anymore. Nobody in real life knows about my depression apart from work so it's not like they know I feel so bad & suicidal all the time. Some times I think they must be blind, as it's obvious I am hurting & nobody seems to realise that especially my fiance. My CPN & therapist have said I've not to make any decisions over my relationship whilst I am depressed as it could be the depression talking, but I dunno anymore. Is my realtionship normal or am I just biding my time until either I kill myself or he dumps me :sad:?