is not like the world needs me

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by LSD, May 15, 2008.

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  1. LSD

    LSD Well-Known Member

    - its not like anyone from here cares if i die or not
    its not like the world will stop moving if i die
    or people will die cuz i die-
    i'm more of a bother than..help

    well my bf goes all nuts when i talk about dying.. but i know that he can keep going
    get a better girlfriend
    i've stopped cutting for almost a month
    but i coudn't hold it anymore today
    i did it-- its not like i'm a good cutter either
    i'm knna pathetic at this also

    ... thinking about it. .i can't do anything fine
    i can't swim
    i can't ride a bike
    i can't skate
    i can't park the car
    i can't cook
    i can't clean
    i can't be smart
    they say that we all have something we are better than others
    but i cant' find that on me

    i have a test tomorrow..and i haven't study--
    and i'm no worried about it
    i'm more worried about how much lower i will breath than anything else
    - i'm not concerned how screwd up i'm in college
    i'm just a waste of money..space and hair

    i shoudn't behere.. seriusly
    it feels so wrong
    ..

    i'm on medication..well supposed to---
    but i'm out of serolux and i haven't take seroquel in 3 days
    i stopped caring if i take then or not
    besides it deosnt' do me much besides controlling my anxiety
    tomorrow i have a date with my psych
    and i feel so damn lazy to go--
    i should just burn and stay in bed... hopping i get the guts someday..to end it all

    --
    is this a "crisis"
    or i'm spamming in this forum

    sorry i'm just a waste of space

    my arm hurts
    and its dirty XP
     
  2. dazzle11215

    dazzle11215 Staff Alumni

    hey lsd, sorry to read you are so low. don't miss that appointment. withdrawal from AD can be pretty bad, really you should be tapering if you are stopping for good. if it's just that you ran out, call the psych and have him/her phone in a prescription.

    i bet if you asked your friends and family they would come up with a different sort of list to describe you, one that celebrates what is special about you. we've never met, but i can tell you write beautifully and are very in touch with your feelings. so there's two to start off your list.

    it's only when we are suffering from depression that we focus on the negatives. please hang on, and see the psych asap.
     
  3. LSD

    LSD Well-Known Member

    thanks! yiu are sooooo nice <33 *huggles*
    maybe is the depresion or maybe i'm right :p who knows
     
  4. though it seems like you have found some help, i just wanna say that i hope you find that even though you may feel like you arent good at anything or useless. I guarantee that your family and friends will find that quite wrong. At times i feel the same way, but then other times i feel like "i am alright" at something. But don't worry, please, i bet your great at alot of things, your just being hard on yourself.:biggrin:
     
  5. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    It sounds as if you have hit a low point right now. The combination of depressive feelings coupled by the sudden stop in the meds can be the cause of this. please keep your appointment and be honest about how you are feeling. Don't turn your back on help when it is so near and possible to obtain. Please stay safe and take care of yourself.You do make a difference. :hug:
     
  6. Gunner12

    Gunner12 Well-Known Member

    There is one thing you can do that many people on this world seem to have forgotten.

    You can learn.
    You can love.
    You can imagine.

    You boyfriend hasn't left you. You mean something to him. You are improtant to him.

    You are definately NOT a waste of space.
     
  7. LSD

    LSD Well-Known Member

    idk why people keep saying i'm hard with myself
    i've noticed that i'm.. more like not wanting to go out of the darkness
    like its a waste of time and effort to change
    besides i'm to much of a lazybum to change :p

    its weird cuz when i'm infront of the psych
    like all the things i wanted to say
    i forgot them all xD
    so i just asnwer all his questions
    next time.. i will bring a note :p

    and how sure you are that i make a difference?
    proly thats the point of life
    we all make a difference
    but how sure we are we acomplish that part
    so what if i already acomplished whatever i was supposed to do in this life
    .. can i go now?

    well proly he is blind? idk what he sees on me
    i still don't get it when he tells me
    well who knows

    but thanks all for your kind words!
    really
    its nice to find someone who can listen to all my craps <33
     
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