OK. Well i passed my date. I set a date to finally leave, but i passed it. The only thoughts i had on that day were of the one friend who doesnt seem to give up. Everything was set and ready, planned out and calculated even. But i could only think of her and the things she told me. She knew something was wrong but she wasnt 100%. I confessed everything to her tonight. It was incredibly hard, i dont even know why i did it. I've been pushing her away so hard but its no use. I could see her eyes watering as i told her and it tore me apart. I'm not supposed to be causing any pain to anyone. Since passing my date i've been terrified, i fell as if i shouldnt have passed it and that i shouldnt be here. I've no idea what i'm still doing here, completely no direction whereas i was sure of everything before that date. Here's the burning question though... Is that one person enough to stay? I dont feel it is, but controversially i've no idea why i'm still here. I'm completely scared.