Every single day, I try to change my situation. So far, there has been no progress. I am isolated. I have always been isolated since birth. Tried to find a reason why I am extremely alienated. Couldn't find anything. So what the hell is wrong with me? What did I do to deserve such misfortunes? I do my best, put on a smile. Inside I feel nothing but agony. It occurred to me yesterday, that maybe my heart is telling me to die. Maybe because I may be of no use and no matter what I try, I will always be a sore loser who will always be talentless and friendless . Makes a lot of sense, since I have no passion or drive to excel. I cannot bear this existence any longer. I have been emotionally scarred and to make it even worse, I still have absolutely nobody to talk to.