This is a question that drives me crazy. I have way too many reasons to think suicide isn't necessarily horrible, if a person is in a lot of pain or a burden to people/society, is it ever justifiable thinking that my one death is a good thing rather than bad. As far as losing a friend/sibling/family member goes, it's always hard, and suicide will always bring up questions like what could I have done, but what if the answer is nothing. I know you love me, and even if I don't quite get that, I know that there would be plenty of tears and lamenting, but what about the tears and lamenting due to my being a pain in the ass? What if I really have nothing to give because I'm already psychically dead and have trouble even being independent instead a burden? I ask this because I've often heard people say that suicide is NEVER justified and the negative consequences never make up for ANYTHING. I guess I need to understand that because I've already violated my own rules. I make up rules for myself just because I think they are empirically, inarguable right, one of them was not to take out life insurance or make a will. In short, make it easier to die. I've been going too far where I've broken my own rules and even started to say goodbyes and try to prepare people. That's really messed up, isn't it?