I am feeling suicidal. Even though I don't believe I will do it now (too afraid of eternal damnation), I know that there is a very real possibility that I will become hopeless enough to do it--regardless of any consequences. I have felt this hopelessness before. That's how I know How real it is. I can feel it deep down--and I am afraid of it. There are so many factors that play into feeling suicidal. It's not just one thing, but a culmination of things. I know this first-hand. I feel like no one understands me, or that there is something wrong with me, something I'm not seeing or getting that everyone else is. And I can't stand it. I can't stand the overwhelming shame of being different and wrong. I can't stand constantly feeling the eyes of judgment on me at all times. i feel that the question of "Why can't I be lik everybody else, or at least understand them" will never be answered. But I always hear people say that suicide is selfish. It's true that if you do it, whatever your circumstances, there is always going to be someone left behind of has to deal with, or clean up the mess. So, do you think that it is the most conceited--self absorbed act of all, or not? Why or why not?